Feelings, why do I have ..

Run & Hide by Algebra
These feelings
Why do I have?
These feelings?

Patiently waiting
on the right guy
he says I'm precious
but I think he's lyin
just to get my attention
make me fall not to mention
he got crazy intentions
I couldn't trust him
so I didn't want him

surely I may not
know exactly what I want
but surely I know
exactly what I don't

still I haven't found what I've
been looking for but i
cant do this no more
imma just run and hide
go far away to hide
true love I'll never find
gonna pack my heart and hide
imma just run

If this doesn't describe how I feel now, I couldn't tell you what does. 

I can't get close. I seriously can't. Even if a guy is interested, I don't trust him. Even if I'm interested, I don't trust him.

But I still feel. I may not trust him, but I have strong feelings. Feelings, why do I have these feelings?

Life would be much sweeter, if I couldn't feel. If I could be comfortably numb like Pink Floyd. If I couldn't feel the butterflies when he looks at me. If I couldn't feel the pain when he doesn't even acknowledge me. If I couldn't feel the smile that spreads across my face when he smiles at me. If I couldn't feel the hurt of knowing he really doesn't feel the same way I do .. not even a li'l bit. 

So I'll work on that...I'll work on not feeling, keeping my emotions at bay... I'm gonna be the  Grinch, lol. My heart is a bit too large .. It needs to be three sizes too small ..

LOL!

Listening To:

Run & Hide, Algebra

Comfortably Numb, Pink Floyd

Thinking Of You, Katy Perry

gonna pack my heart and hide, starry nights, sunny days, Naima <3