scared n 'fraid

Me by Erykah Badu

Cosmic Journey by Solange

This Bird by Solange

Scared n 'Fraid In Love...

I'm scared of him being too good for little ole me.

I'm scared of him not being good enough for lil ole me.

I'm scared of touching, because I never know how I far I want to go.

I'm scared my eyes will wander.

I'm afraid he'd cheat.

I'm scared I move to slow.

I'm scared he won't move fast enough. 

I'm afraid cause I'm too picky.

I'm scared cause I really don't know what I want.

I'm scared because I want so much, but know so little.

I'm scared because I'm willing to learn, but I'm afraid no one wants to teach.

I'm afraid I'll fall blindly.

I'm scared that love is just an overrated four letter word.

I'm scared it'll be unrequited.

I'm afaid it'll be too good, and I'm scared I'll loose all my morals.

I'm scared I'll smile to hard when I think of him.

I'm scared I won't open up as much as he would want.

I'm scared I'd mess up.

I'm afraid he'd mess up.

I'm scared of crying to hard.

I'm afraid of falling to hard.

I'm scared...and afraid... that I'll never, ever, ever really fall in love... ever.

Also, I rarely remember my dreams, but last night, I had a dream I had a huge fight with a close friend. I can't remember exactly what she said, but she made a comment saying how much better she was than me, which pissed me off to no end and I absolutely went OFF on her. And let me tell you how good that felt... I can barely remember the fight now, but I knew it was passionately, I can still feel the passion, I was crying and felt soooo relieved. I woke happy and relieved, and I had no idea why, and I then remembered the dream...

We shouldn't waste our time with people that don't make us happy. We should get rid of all dead-weight, we never need anything to hold us down.

.. but its so much easier to let go of someone in a dream than in real life...

sunny days, starry nights, love Naima <3